Why Me.. Seeing him kills me it makes me less strong. Trying to move on doesn't help. It makes me more worried that ill be seeing more than one person who doesn't like me anymore but no.... I didn't listen to myself I moved away from him and automatically went to Jessy he seemed sweet. Cute. But also trouble. He led me on now we just give each other awkward stares, and I feel so sad and depressed around him. After finally telling somebody I started falling for my friend Andrew he was redneck (like him) sweet, funny, and all out a great person but when I saw him talking to his x again I had that feeling of loosing hope and my heart couldn't feel more crushed.... Hmm I don't know, maybe I just rush into things. Maybe flirt to much . Gosh who knows maybe this is payback for going for the bad boys. And not the good ones. I'm rebellious and it's hard to stay with my Christian ways ..... I love who I fight for ....I cry secretly to myself because no one cares and doesn't need to! I want to be alone. And not tell anyone what's wrong with me. I want to be shy again where nobody notices me.... But I can't really change the impact I've made on people all I can do is move on forward. And I know he still thinks about what he's done but he pushes that away when he sees another pretty girl walk down the aisle ' I can just pray about things now.