Ramble Am I crazy to seek refuge of the thought that maybe my current status of my personal #life is actually what I needed to determine my relationship status as a whole? Wait, did that make sense? Sorry, it has been quite awhile since I pen down my spiralling emotions because I find it supremely therapeutic to express your emotions through writing. How?- cause' it gives that sense of 'de-cluttering' of your thoughts and it really helps . Anyway, back to decluttering. So shit happens and my relationship has been put on hold( yes yes. Another gaaay relationship- related post). Well we're not broken up, cos frankly we dont have enough reasons to. Okay, that might have sounded abit dodgy. Well, we as couples do not have issues or problems. We get along perfect. But. There's another thing that could result in problems later in the future. Money matters. Thus being the wiser, scarred, logical but caring individuals, the other half spoke of this as a huge issue whereby he is not capable to commit any more than he has now cause' he would not be able to provide me with things that would supposedly make me happy. Well it really is more complicated than this. Long story short, we have decided to slow things down, and I am doing it for him cos i know it is slowly eating him up inside. Yeah there are days where I feel I am being too apologetic and 'nice' but I guess thats just me. Uhm.. I am not sure how to end this but yeah. Thats that. Damn could you tell how much of a mess I sound like?