Trying Not Losing Myself I ran up the steps to the music school with my hood pulled up over my face so no one could see the tears streaming down my face. After Andrew and I finally found mom she wasn't happy in fact she was furious shouting that she had said exactly where she was going to be and asking if she had been unclear about where she was waiting. Yes I had thought silently in my head you were unclear. At that point Andrew was already bit upset and then when we arrived at music school he couldn't find my music bag which was apparently some where in the passenger seat, so mom started yelling for him to get out but he thought she was talking to me so he didn't get out until she finally got out if car pulled open his door and practically yanked him out. She handed me my music bag and I mumbled a thank you through my tears and ran up the steps. You may be wondering why I'm so upset about something as little as this but the truth is I wasn't that upset but my brother was and when ever one of my brothers starts crying that get me upset. Have you ever seen the people you look up to and try to protect ( even though I'm the youngest I'm very protective of my brothers ) break down? If you have then you would understand what I'm feeling right now. As soon as I entered the school I rushed up to the second floor into the bathroom before anyone could see my tear stained face. As soon as closed the door I broke down in the safety of the walls where no one could see me. Back shaking sobs racked through I finally got through the worst until I was just crouching on the ground crying and taking deep breaths. A knock sounded at the door " One minute" I called out shakily, I got up off the floor and looked at my face in the mirror. My eyes were red and you could easil see the tracks of my tears. I put some paper towel under the faucet and dabbed my face. Then I picked up my music bag and opened the door. I ran into a deep muscular chest not bothering to look up I mumbled a sorry then continued to walk until I reached my Pats door. I took one more shaky deep breath then headed into my piano lesson.