I'm... I'm seating in the dark, thinking if I should have a drink or not, debating if I go back to that cold bed of us, if I should try again to "fix" this. I'm listening music in the dark trying to compose in my head how the night should turn out. Imagining how you make love to me, and we can leave everything behind us. I'm starting to give up tonight, almost in tear I had put my feet in the ground and just realized that nothing is going to change. I'm falling sleep...