Sunday I woke up so early and for that, I get to face the Sunday sunshine! Feels great, healthy even. I think this is the very first time I've woken up that's not against my will. LOL I feel so happy with the sermon I heard a while ago when I attended the early Sunday mass here at our nearby church. The priest was telling about many things but one important thing struck me the most. It's because I've experienced this with mom. It's about having problems in #life that you find extremely difficult to face and makes you feel like you have no power left at all to suppress them, and so the last resort you do is tell God to take your #life already or just kill you since there's no #life left for you on earth anymore, because of these difficult problems you're facing. It was yet the hardest/darkest time for me dealing with the situation when mom became like that. She was almost suicidal then. She tried or should I say, she DID eat rat poison in front of me. I was in great shock. I've never been so vulnerable to pain the way I felt it witnessing mom that way. What's worse is that it's because of dad. In that very moment I can't seem to revive my senses and I was completely lost in thought. I thought mom was going to die because of eating that rat poison in her hand. But with God's love, I thank Him because she's alright after that stunt she pulled off. She just had a really bad tummy ache after. Anyway, back to the mass a while ago, the priest said that what's important in attending a mass is that, I get a moral lesson out of it; about faith that God bestows upon us. God gives us the luxury to discover His love for us, but we have to have an open mind and heart in order for that to happen. God didn't promise #life to be a bed of roses, rather God lets us experience all these hardships and trials and wants us to seek Him through the darkest hours of our lives. He wants us to be faithful and to believe in Him when we are overwhelmed with doubts. He promised us an everlasting #life. He didn't expect us to know what He meant with giving us an eternal #life, but He wants us to believe in it. Believe in Him. As I #quote from an author who is unknown; "Having faith is believing without seeing, and the reward of faith is seeing what you believe in." Trust completely to God and He will speak to you through the most ordinary things of #life. Lots of love, Era