I was... He woke me up finally, it seemed an eternity since I left the bed and laid in the couch. He finally touched me and kissed me with so much passion, we stand up and started dancing slowly, so close I can feel his breathing, his hands are all over the place, I want more, now the tears are of excitement and happiness. We are going straight up to warm that bed that it felt so cold earlier tonight and... Holy shit my fucking cat woke me up... I was just dreaming...
I'm... I'm seating in the dark, thinking if I should have a drink or not, debating if I go back to that cold bed of us, if I should try again to "fix" this. I'm listening music in the dark trying to compose in my head how the night should turn out. Imagining how you make love to me, and we can leave everything behind us. I'm starting to give up tonight, almost in tear I had put my feet in the ground and just realized that nothing is going to change. I'm falling sleep...