The fantasies played out, unengaged? Driven away, wild ranting, enraged. Always seem to be the second choice, Never had a voice. Laughs are so expensive when held this way. Jokes about how to pay along the way.. The salutations secrets there impressed, Always second best. Twist away again and don't delay, The little cracks emerging; always pushed away, You hurt so good, I feel so caught, You occupy my silly thoughts.

Fear At Night Oh Christ, this fear, Of your betrayal, I am the haunted, Destined to fail. Your sweetness comes, At such a price, A Vicious cycle, You roll the dice. Drugs and drink and Disorder, Disorder, What is order anyway, When the cats away the mouse will always play. I need you to protect me

Relent Lying on the bedroom wall, Tapping on the ceiling, Waiting for the disconnect To take away all feeling, Take these bonds and drive them to the furthest deepest sea, Let them sink and never, Keep a soul from being free. The bird that sings the sweetest, Shatters glass when feathers tear, Familiar as dissolving dreams, Posture starts to wear. Stones are left unturned, The grains of sand fall through, the clasp of shaking hands, Trying to hold you.

Unmatched Oh take me home, I'm lost inside my head, Wishes that I promised I had locked away and said "oh no, I've taken everything that ever was apart" To ease with graceful step into your heart. While old men whisper stories of the street, The smell of beer and sweat and hopeless dreaming, Of a place that never existed, of a time that never was, They look at you and wish their youth had paused. As rain falls down ravenous for concrete and your hair, reaching the end of your nose, it stops to regard me there. Though tears and rain look much the same sometimes, It's hard to tell with your face so close to mine. Bring out your old shoes and your socks will not be matched, Dance your way up Patricks hill and let me hear your latest news, And sigh when thinking of his grinning face, It hurts to think of being second place

Calm in solitude, Dreams of dark. Foreboding light, Breaks day from night, cuts me open, Leaves its mark. Stillness ruptured, Vessels overturned, Our bow is battered, exposed, in tatters. Keel fanned upward, Tall sheets burned. #lifeboats bloated, Bereft of air, not a soul inside, They swim and slide, Their way out Here to there.