Was trying to get advice but get scolded instead... That's just how my family works... XD Maybe it's my fault on getting my point across. This could be the reason of my avoiding people. I know very well I'm not the saddest person on earth, I'm just trying to say at this moment I feel very sad and betrayed. I think I can get my point across better in writing, that's why writing about this sad-depressed things makes me feel better. But then this is not good for the reader, and some say readers don't need to do something to lighten up the mood (I'm lucky and happy though that two of the readers really lighten up my mood). For people who read this... Please give some advice on how to speak out or get your point across... Or communicating...

My head's as heavy as lead. My heart's uneasy, expression bleak. My vision's blur, my limb's numb. Tried to stand but it all went black, For a few second, to the floor my legs were bound I really need to eat some food...

The cycle is getting shorter. This was the reason why we got tangled, I'm at border. Cried a lot I did, to you it's just a bother. In my world everything is crumbling down, Nothing left to be sown, That's why I always wear a frown. Try not to drown, But my tears help me go further from town. Reached out my hand, too late, I can hear my heartbeat reverberate in my ears, I'm scared, cornered like what I usually bear calmly, but this time I'm in fear, for I might not be able to conquer my demon.

When your leg is numb but you want to run, cause everybody else is running and you don't wanna be left behind. What should you do?

Six books on stock market, four novels, three popular psychology books, one autobiography to read, but stuck at opuss. XD