Hearing someone who once loved you point out your flaws and laugh right in front of you absolutely kills

no amount of #poems could summarize the sadness I feel inside of me

He's the sunlight in my eyes He's a bittersweet goodbye And I just can't you why I let him break my heart again

is it normal? is it normal to feel like this? to feel so alone, like no one cares? is it normal to feel like this? to feel like no one in the world would care if you died? people say "we care" but is that all really true? maybe they say it just because they don't want to feel responsible for my death it's really true that a simple smile can hide a million struggles I could disappear and it wouldn't even make a difference no no one notices is it normal to feel like this?

I am I am as useless as the little bones in your ear you are what keeps my heart beating I am as empty as the as the bottle on my shelf you are the only thing that keeps me breathing I am the rain on your summer day you are the sun showers in late may I am as fucked as fucked can be I am nothing to you you are everything to me