It's Snowing In Scotland! So it's ten to midnight and it began snowing at around half 10, it's absolutely beautiful, the snow! I actually opened the window and could hear the crispy snow falling into the ground, it was lovely! Can't wait to be all wrapped up with my bad and scarf and red cheeks and nose, gonna look so cute! Hope Rhys gets snowed down here too, he lives 40 miles away, I don't want him to go home, and his car is pretty shit in this weather! Chances are he will get snowed down here, happy days

Rhys Sitting in Rhys' car while we drove down the backroads following Andrews pale blue Clio, in complete silence. No reason. I guess we were both tired, I mean, it was 11.30 at night, there was nothing to speak about. The only noises I could actually identify over the rough ground groaning under the tire treads were Rhys' breathing and the clanging of empty cans that flooded the floor space beneath my feet. I was staring out the window admiring the sky as it was revealed behind the silhouettes of black twisty trees and shrunken abysses of shadowed shrubs, when a thought lay heavily on me; everyone was speaking of the world ending on the 21st of December, 2012. Strictly, logically.. Scientifically speaking, it wasn't strictly true. I guess it's only a belief that the world would end prior to the Mayan Callander finishing then, it's not fate, it's simply a coincidence. They died? Ran out of space? Ran out of materials? So many solutions but so many people are inclined on ramming their stupid beliefs down our throats about our home planet erupting from the inside out, or a rapture coming up on us. I just don't believe something like that is likely to happen. Even though it was a few weeks away, and I didn't believe it at all, it was starting to frighten me, I was thinking about it more, I was considering who i'd be with when the cloud of death drowned each and every one of us, what if I survived? What if Rhys survived? Hey, I could live on a planet alone with him. We could do what we wanted.. The sky's colours were so displaced, because it was just nearing the end of autumn, it was getting darker earlier, but from where I lived, the sky is pitch black with the occasional wink of one bright star, or the sparkling tinsel of perfectly aligned consolations and galaxies, but from there, in the car, on the backroads, the sky was a mixtured paint canvas of purples and pinks, lilac and midnight blue, it was almost mesmerising to look at, I didn't quite understand how Rhys could drive so concentrated when a sky like this was surrounding us and patting us off to sleep. Because the roads were almost completely empty, Andrew began driving safely, but recklessly. Down the hill to my street he picked up speed, and so did Rhys, I half imagined Rhys pulling into the lane in which traffic from the opposite direction would drive, and a car facing us head on, I was screaming at him telling him to pull into the other lane, screaming he'd kill us, and his face is dazed staring blankly with determination in his eyes into the victims car windscreen as if he would just evaporate through the car, but no. I blinked back into reality knowing Rhys could be an idiot, but his acts of idiocy would not consist of him driving on the wrong side of the road murdering us both as if he was possessed by a demon. There was something about Rhys, I don't quite know what, even to this day, hes just so flawless in my eyes. Since the day I met him, that smile, his eyes, his laugh. They send chills up my spine. His lips and his kisses are irresistible, his hugs and his hold are so warm. I couldn't care what anybody says about him, he's impeccable to me and I wouldn't swap him for the world. I never ever thought I would be placed with someone like him, he's amazing, he's way too good for me, I always thought about it before. But now that it is this way it kinda feels too good to be true and that everything would start to go badly, quickly. But knowing he felt the exact same, thinking about it being like this but also thinking he didn't have a chance. We have so much in common, I'm surprised we don't have the same thoughts about everything, even though we almost do, there's very few things I've noticed which we disagree on. He's amazing, I love him.

You Know That Feeling.. When you look at someone, and their face is absolutely flawless, they make you smile and they make you laugh they make you the best person you could be. You've never been happier and you've never felt so safe. You know that feeling when you're with them and you feel like you're capable of anything with them, you know they have flaws, you know they do, but to you even their flaws grow on you, you learn to love the flaws, you'll soon learn to love them. You know that feeling when there's nothing you've ever wanted but them, if you were asked for three wishes, yeah people would want to be a millionaire with a fancy car and unlimited wardrobe and credit card, but in one of those wishes you'd think of a person, something to do with love, wanting them to love you, or kiss you or make you happy, but that feeling when those wishes you could achieve mean nothing and you think that with that person you feel absolutely fulfilled. That feeling when even someone can hate you and tell you that you're not beautiful and maybe you'd believe it, but 70% of that feeling is ringing in your ear with their voice of them telling you, that you are beautiful, and you mean the world to them. You know that feeling when you think you're in love..

Chapter 2. Roslynlee We were halfway to Edinburgh when I woke up from dozing off on Rhys' knee. Jessie's Girl by Rick Springfield came on, just in time! I loved this song from Rhys constantly playing it. I sat up and Rhys smiled at me and sorted my hair out. We all started singing along, these were always the highlights of the car journeys, especially the fact that two men six years older than Hannah and I could sing at a higher pitch than we could, hilarious. This was a 43 minute journey, and Jessie's Girl took up 3 minutes of that, minus the time it had taken us to already get where we were, of course. I genuinely always fell asleep in the back of the car anyway, so I lay back down so my head was on Rhys' lap again, and even though there was heavy metal rock music blasting loudly from the car speakers after peaceful Jessies Girl I still had no difficulty dozing off, you learn to get used to it after a while. "Wake up flaps, we've arrived at Roslynlee" I woke up to Rhys singing in my ear over and over, in the same tune as "Wake me up, when September ends" Very creative Rhys.. I sat up and had a look at Rhys' expression. "Oh, um, you're awake.." He said embarrassingly "Yeah I know, and you're an awful singer.." I said giggling and began getting out the car. Rhys paused then realised what I said and shoved my ass, I fell forward smacking my face off the car next to us. I heard Rhys and Andrew explode into laughter and then run around to me crumbled on the floor to see of I was alright. "Oh my fucking god!" Rhys exclaimed still laughing "Are you okay?!" He held out his hand and helped me up. I gave him a hard glare and then began to walk away. Rhys followed me and began trying to convince me to speak to him. "Flaps, look at me I'm naked. Look, Blink182 poster! Lynn, aw Lynn I'm sorry, please talk to me." He went on. I stood still and he came to a sharp halt and put his hands on my waist. So I put my hands on his shoulders and gave him a cuddle. I heard him sniff a deep inhalation. "Rhys what are you doing?!" I shouted "Your hair smells nice.." He laughed. I nodded and we started walking. Andrew and hannah caught up behind us. "You sleep like a rock by the way!" He said to me patting me on the head "Rocks don't sleep." I replied sarcastically. "Shes right, Dude." Rhys added. I walked faster ahead to catch up with Hannah, who was always glued to her phone. Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, Instagram. You name it, she'd have it. We got caught up in conversation about "Remember When's" when Andrew shouted "Stop!" Me and Hannah spun around. "Hannah, rocks sleep don't they? Cause they're just sitting there all the time, they've got to be!" Andrew explained Hannah opened her mouth to say something and then shook her head and had a giggle. Andrew pointed at me, and questioned "They do, right?" Andrew was a fairly intelligent man, hearing these highly idiotic words slobber from his mouth was a strange thing. "Uh, no they don't sleep because they're inanimate objects, not alive.." I answered "HA!" Rhys shouted pointing in Andrews face. "But they... Nature.. Eugh.. I give up" Andrew said laughing and we continued up the path to Roslynlee. One thing we were aware of was the guards building, and the guards themselves. The guards building, obviously for night duties, resembled a large house, no idea what was inside, but from a previous visit we decided we were feeling mischievous and peeked inside one of the windows, only to find an empty bed and a naked desk. We reached the window in which we always snuck in, only to find Andrew press his hands up against the glass, basically his disappointed way of telling us that the glass wasn't shattered anymore. "Okay. This is hard to say guys." Andrew sniffled "But we're going to have to go through the.. the.. The door!!" We all gasped over-dramatically. This was an inside joke, the door wasnt that interesting, it was pretty shit. The door was our exit, it was on the ground floor next to the paediatric ward which we always found creepy. We ventured around the corner and Andrew held back his hand to signal is to stay where we were. He paced down the hill and reached the door, we saw him hold his head high, as if praying that this goddamn door wasn't closed up like our other enter point. He put his hand on the door handle and exhaled, then with a small, quiet movement he moved with the door, opening it! He raised his fist in the air and whispered something, which we couldn't hear as he was more than a metre away from us! I turned around to Rhys to say "yes!" In excitement, but to soon realise he wasn't there, I spun back around to see him running down the hill shouting "yay!!!!" He caught his foot on a rock, squealed and landed on his face. Me and hannah found it difficult to hold in a laugh, it was sort of mandatory that we did though, the guard would be out on night duty. Hannah and I made our own way down the hill, we werent making the same mistake Rhys did, we warily walked down, ducked under the metal railing and into the ward. The door slammed shut, and we all jumped, I did too, we looked around at each other and laughed. Too be honest, I was quite timid, but with this kind of thing I was actually alright. I used to be petrified of the dark, until Andrew and Rhys dragged hannah and I out to these old abandoned buildings from Thursdays to Sundays every week. Thursdays starting our adventures because Rhys lived in Haddington, Edinburgh. And he only came through on a Thursday because he was working the rest of the week. Genuinely what was catching my attention at that present time was the fact that we all about shit out a brick from getting a fright at the door closing us in there. Was I the only one to take into consideration what was actually in there? What awaited us? What we were yet to discover?

I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again