As Times Goes By. In the first year you were been polite and caring. You make me feel like there is no one else better. Make me think have I truly find the ONE. Who understands me and love me so. As time goes by, you started to text on the phone every single minute we spent time together. But when We text, it will be a forever wait til you answer. In the second year, I do my best to love you more and always spoilt you with what you love. But you never wanted to go holidays with me and find yourself an excuse. As time goes by til now, you been complaing so much like a child and exaggerate your stories that i am no longer interested. So now, whats left of me is ugly because I am running thin with my patients and my love for you is less and less each day.

Help!!! After all these drama...you came back as "friend" You were like before...messaging me everyday and hangout as usual... because now your so call "girlfriend" went back to her country and going back with her man that didn't know she was cheating... And you just come back to me like nothing happen... Do you know how much it hurts me when you left me in the dark?? Do you know when I saw you texting her while we having dinner, it really makes me feel uncomfortable...?? Have you ever think about me once?? Am I only your second best or not even that...I'm just someone who entertain you because you haven't find a new girl yet?? It has been long enough and I do want to leave you in peace...but something I can not give up is leaving you alone... I tell myself so many times I need to let go and I need to leave him... But as soon as you text me...I feel that maybe slightly you still care... Am I crazy?? I really do want to tell you how I feel...but will you run away again??

You are driving me insane... I am so tired of me been the one who gives you everything...and all you give me is misery and loneliness... You always turn away from me...because I am not good enough for you... But yet, I am only a fill-in when you needed someone to company you... I am so sick of acting like i am been the clingy one...I don't know why I have to be nice to you...smile to you and pretend nothing is wrong... I still remember the days when I met you always say ur morning and good nites... I still can't accept the fact that is the end for me and you...and I hate myself for that... You give me so much pain...I wish I could die...I still miss your smile and kisses and the hugs to keep me warm... Although it is hard to let you go without any regrets ... I will be strong and willing to leave...is better if I'm not here...

~What The Hell...* I have no idea what the hell is going on... Ever since you've done wrong... You make me like I was the one who done wrong... Everyday I texts you to see how you are, and what you upto... But all you gave me was was a yep or nothing at all... You only talk to me the most is... when I offer you a ride home or stuff that you need... What the hell am I to you?? What the hell am I suppose to do... I don't know what kind of games you are playing... It hurts when you go off with someone else... And all I want is to be by your side... What the hell am I doing to myself... So hard to let you go when You don't ever care... I hope you realize how much I love you... But that day will never come...

Happy Pills...~ Mr. Candy man... Can I please get a jar of happy pills... So I can erase my memories... Erase my heart ache... Erase my tears from crying everynight.... Most of all...i want to... Erase him in my mind... I wish I never met him in my #life... All he do is take and forget...and I'm sick of give and forgive...