Changing If I could cry instead I would, But this blood will provide the flood. And if I could stop I would, Find an explanation and stop like I should. And you gotta understand, That I don't want to kill you too. Cause when I was young I got punished for leaving a mess, So it's lead to my decision to break things off now before I fuck things up more, cause that's what I do. I fuck up situations with my fucked up body and my fucked up head. And I never ever wanted for you to see this side. But it's in my head and impossible to hide. Give me a moment and I'll be what I was but I can't promise I'll be the same, I promise that I can change.

// All by myself Eyes blur, I get drunk, One more time, To make everything seem okay again.

Sixth Form Rambling Completely distressed I waste away my Friday nights behind doors, Buried under paper, Fingers sore from typing out essay after essay, Like a worn out horse, I repeat and repeat, a record playing 10,000 word processed essays, Sweet and lyrical. Replay. Replay. I waste and waste and waste away, Focus draining, #life source draining. I am drained. TGIFs

Cigarettes Does he not know it will kill Kill all the children in the cancer ward Kill all the rats and kill all the worms Kill all the sick and their contagious germs The smoke fills and quickens black lungs like the catalyst of death, Speeding up their death with thick smoke it pollutes little lungs and chokes them. Dead.

False. I'm floating on clouds of cotton, I'm caked in cosmetics, Concealed by creams and crystals. Sick as cancer. I sicken. Surrounded by this fake facade. I am unsure. I am doubtful.