Too much time spent on searching for the meaning of #life. And not enough spent on really being alive. So basically my existence just survives, happiness I really do not find. Or maybe I'm on the wrong pursuit? I'm searching to be right.

**Freestyle at 10am. I'm pretty sure most guys and girls can relate. Some of these niggas just fall in love with every pretty girl they see Saying they love her but in reality, their beauty is what they feen The attention they crave from bringing a dime to the scene But in the end they see an arrogant bitch and realize beauty doesn't mean anything Not if their personalities shit, but there's exceptions like look at me I know I'm pretty but these other bitches just made it harder for me Having every nigga think I'll be a bitch so they never do the approaching I guess I gotta wait for the one who takes his time to really get to know me Fall in love blind, it's his heart that I wanna be provoking One day, I'll find a MAN who'll see that beauty lies inside And not every pretty girl is like the bitches he'd fuck on the side You CAN have both, the perfect girl never died Find where they reside, stop falling in love with your eyes Don't chase, because these bitches will never abide There's no loyalty, they'll turn you dark inside So please just stop. Falling in love with eyes. Just wait and you'll find, someone worth your time. Someone to give peace to your mind, give me your time. I'll show you love is still alive. Stop chasing the hoes and leaving wifeys to the side.

Behind every cloud I see, the sun peaks out behind it Telling me there's still hope, you'd be blind not to find it. But sometimes I too need reminding So I watch the sun rising Mind corrupted by a million thoughts, But my heart's still tryna fight it So I watch the sky brighten, as the beams begin to shine Remind myself that everyday can be a whole new time A whole new world If I only choose to explore Change the negatives to positives If I choose to deport The rays become my resort and I remember That as long as the sun shine I'll be fine forever <3

What lies behind the smile of a beautiful girl Heart broken so many times that she forgot the meaning of love. As she prays to her God above, the tears stream down her face. And if she shows them to someone else, they'll say it's just a phase An everlasting one I guess. Played so many times and then you wonder how she has no love left. You wonder how her moods have turned sour And her smile has turned fake Well if fake love was all she got, can you really blame her for the bitch she was made Can you really blame her for being so afraid? Afraid to give her heart to another soul, in fear that she'll again have to pick up the remains. Again. And again. And again. She's tired of love.

It's like... When you put that pen on the paper, your hand just moves Unconscious of what your writing, as the ink seeps in the grooves A mind you never lose, because your thoughts are all extracted You're in your zone now, where you'll never be distracted And when you think about the pain to which you barely reacted You let it flow, let it stick on that paper like it never happened Like you never felt the pain, Like it never pierced your soul You pour out the thoughts that your heart always told Your mind, when they continued to scold You just try and save your heart from turning so cold It's so cold... So you continue to pour Your thoughts down as your pen explores As you try to just free your soul I'm just here trying to free my soul...