When We Come Of Age I want to be me But that's not as easy as it seems When you're a kid it almost sounds silly When adults say "Don't be afraid to be who you want to be" Because you figure "Well who else would I be?" But over the years you start to realize Hiding certain parts of yourself is encouraged Unless you want to be ostricized "Wear this" "listen to that" "fall in love this way" Are just a few things they'll say But they have no room to criticize They haven't seen the world through our eyes They don't see the carnage and heartache they leave behind With their wars, their prejudice, they're phobias, and their ignorance They say they want what's best for us, But I don't see it When we come of age, we'll have a lot to fix But someone has to do it, Since they're too busy judging and bickering to get around to it Racism, sexism, homophobia All are within our power to change We just have to stand up ans fight for it

Pressure I'm the example, despite being young I have to be perfect, no room for mistakes One wrong step and the world seems to shake Can't they see what their expectations are doing to me? Can't they just love me for being me? No. They can't And they don't even know the full story There's a secret that I hide, too afraid to share Although it might be more apparent, if they were more aware I feel as though its been somewhat noticable, despite my clever decoys I fall in love with girls, although i've dated lots of boys. Society told me boys were what's expected of me. So I obeyed because I obey professionally But the pressure is too much now I have to find a way to be myself somehow But how do I live unapologetically, When who I love subjects me to constant anxiety? How will people perceive me, what will they say? Is this part of my #life going to drive them away? Pressure coming from all directions To be the picture of perfection I don't want to be the angel anymore Not when the halo comes with keeping score

I Wish I wish that one day, your "I love you" would mean what I want it to I wish you were capable of feeling for me what I feel for you Because to me you are the stars, nothing shines as bright as your smile I wish you realized how much I love you Although I know, even if you did, I could never have you. But i'm a hopeless dreamer, you see. Imagining worlds that could never be I wish you could be mine I know this is a waste of time But you're worth the pain and heartache For I've endured much worse than unrequited love.

Hey! (: Sorry ive been gone for..what is it? 6 months now? Something like that. School just got crazy busy and I started sports, now im PCSing possibly staying overseas. Anyway i'll start posting more after next week when ive accelerated and dont have to sorry about school anymore. Thanks for reading! (:

Giving Up You've changed You're gone I'm sorry I hurt you But why do you have to hurt me too? You said you wouldn't be this way But now I'm forced to just look away. There's only so much I can take But I'm done now It's over I can't fight anymore I'm done settling score