Can't Say Yes "No. Nathan...I am really sorry, I swear...But...I-I can't...I love you!" I stroked Nathan's soft cheek and kissed it before wiping away a tear from his face. "But...Belsie...I don't understand." He pouted as I began to shut the door. "I don't think I do either, baby." I shut the door and began to cry. --------------------------------- "Bell? Are you ok?" My brothers and sister all came up to me and crashed me into a group hug. "It's ok." Rocky smiled at me. "You'll get over this." Riker sighed hugging me tighter. "Come on, baby." Ryland smiled at me, cheering me up. "GET TOGETHER GIRL!" Ross shouted at me laughing. "Fuck off, ROSS!" Rydel pushed him away and dragged me upstairs. --------------------------------- We did my hair, outfit and makeup. "Girly day!" Stormie smiled at me as Mark and the boys all say together on the sofa. "Bella!!!" Ross ran up to me, grabbing my shoulders. -Ross sang 'Forget About You' for me (search Forget About You-R5 in YOUTUBE!) "Dude. Thanks." I bro fisted him and smiled, pushing him slightly. He giggled and kissed me. "I love you sissy." He hugged me and Rydel groaned in the corner. "Bella isn't the ONLY sister!" Ross laughed. "She's better than you!" He exclaimed. "We're TWINS!" She laughed as dragged me out to the mall. -I AM SO SORRY FOR THE SHORT CHAPTER BUT WHAT DO YOU THINK SO FAR?!
My Self Harm Story-How It All Began Hi! So, uh, my full name is Ciara Nicole Paige Brown, I'm 12 yrs old and I self harm. At first it was barely even a scratch, but it was nice. It then went on to deeper scratches which would have signs that it would of bled over time. Then it went on to trying to get it so deep that it would cut, I've almost got there, sometimes it works, I've got some scars too, and some fresh 'cuts?' On my right arm at the top. I don't know why I do it, I just do. I guess I feel alone without even knowing it. But I feel bad for doing it, I'm upsetting loads of people, but I can't stop, I don't think I ever will, it's addictive. True story- Ciara xo
I've Never Been Perfect I've never been perfect I have scars on my legs I have scars on my arms I've never been perfect I'm not the nicest I get pissed so easily I've never been perfect I can't make friends well I can't keep friends well I've never been perfect My grades aren't brilliant Neither are my answers I've never been perfect Although I have a... Boyfriend... I will NEVER be perfect
Posters The posters hanging on my wall I think they're all bout to fall but I'll keep on searching till I find, The one that will be mine, I know this might scare you, but, I can't get you outa my mind, And it hurts me just to know that, I'm another fan behind, BRIDE: Been to concerts, Oh no, Seen you, HECK NO, I've seen lots of pics, Watched tons of flicks, But I still never knew, You're in a poster, On ma wall, Ma whole #life's gonna FALL, I'd follow you round In and out of town, It doesn't matter where you are, Cause in ma mind you're never far, I am always seein ya clearly, I'll always love you so dearly, Even though I ain't that young, You're posters are all still hung And I still never knew, BRIDGE:Been to concerts, Oh no, Seen you, HECK NO, I've seen lots of pics, Watched tons of flicks, But I still never knew, Chorus:You're in a poster, On ma wall, Ma whole #life's gonna FALL, I'd follow you round In and out of town, It doesn't matter where you are, Cause in ma mind you're never far, I am always seein ya clearly, I'll always love you so dearly, Even though I ain't that young, You're posters are all still hung, And I still never knew -It's funny I never thought about this; What about you do I miss, I've never seen you round, When I'm in and outa town, So if you'd just come around, Maybe you'll be the true love I've found. CHORUS 2X: You're in a poster, On ma wall, Ma whole #life's gonna FALL, I'd follow you round In and out of town, It doesn't matter where you are, Cause in ma mind you're never far, I am always seein ya clearly, I'll always love you so dearly, Even though I ain't that young, You're posters are all still hung, And I still never knew You're in a poster, On ma wall, Ma whole #life's gonna FALL, I'd follow you round In and out of town, It doesn't matter where you are, Cause in ma mind you're never far, I am always seein ya clearly, I'll always love you so dearly, Even though I ain't that young, You're posters are all still hung, But now I know