Chapter 3 Reginae I woke up the next morning naked next to a naked Christopher. Christopher had his arms wrapped snuggly around me. I unwrapped myself from his arms and walked slowly into the bathroom. Last night was amazing! Christopher touched and made love to my body in ways nobody else could even think of. He took his time and he loved me right. I never expected to come five times and to keep him on his toes. When I came back into Christopher’s bedroom. I realized last night we had sex on Christopher’s tour bus and then he picked me up and we had sex again here. Christopher blurted out “You have PPD?” “What in the hell is PPD?” “Postpartum #depression. It’s a type of clinical #depression that affects most women after childbirth.” “How do you know all this?” “You have a decreased sex drive. Your sleeping and eating have changed dramatically. You look more exhausted. You show that you are having a feeling of being overwhelmed.” I sit up in the bed and put on Christopher’s t-shirt. I said “The fucking doctor said that we should wait 6 weeks before having sex again.” Christopher chuckled and said “Babe, it’s 2 months already. SiyAisha would’ve turned 2 months old on the 30th.” I put my head in my hands. Christopher said with so much excitement in his voice “How do you feel, babe?” “I’m good.” “That’s good. What you want to eat?” “I’ve been feigning for some pancakes, eggs, grits and some sausage. And a tall fresh glass of orange juice.” “Coming right up! I’ll be back in 10 minutes.” Christopher kissed my cheek, then slapped my ass and ran down the stairs. Christopher I walked up in front of Chef Pierre. Chef Pierre was holding Reginae’s large tray filled with her favorite things, like strawberries, pancakes, pineapples, grapes, eggs, bacon, sausages, cheese, and a tall squeezed glass of orange juice. I managed to get her a dozen bouquet of pink roses to sit on the side of the tray. But when I walked inside, Reginae was sleeping peacefully. I just walked over to her and kissed her cheek and Chef Pierre grabbed the tray and we made the trip back down the 18 stairs to the kitchen. 4 Hours Later at 1:30pm Momma J Christopher and I are in the living room. I’m watching a movie on my iPad and Christopher is on his blackberry texting away. I blurt out “Christopher, where’s Reginae?” “Upstairs still sleep I think!” He says still looking at his phone. I get up from the living room and walk up the 18 flights of stairs to their bedroom where like he said, she was sound asleep. I sit on the bed next to her and she jumps up. I take her hand and say “Baby, it’s me. How are you feeling?” She puts her hand on her head and says “Exhausted. I need to throw up.” She jumps off the bed and goes to throw up in the toilet. I go right behind her and hold her hair up. She stands up and wipes her mouth. I grab a bottle of water from the table and give it to her. She takes a little sip and then a big one. She says “Thanks Momma.” I watch as she crawls back under the covers and drifts off to sleep. I can tell that Reginae is pregnant again. She might not want to admit it but, she’s pregnant.

Part 2 I watched as Reginae’s iPhone rang again with Robin Thicke’s “Lost Without You” letting her know that Christopher is calling again. She turned towards her phone and pressed Decline and walked away. Her phone lit up and saying “Voicemail” She walked away with her style team. I picked up her phone and pressed talk to listen to the voicemail. It was from Christopher. “Baby where are you? I’ve been trying all day to talk to you. I’ve made a mistake. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. I promise to make it up to you. Just let me explain. What you saw that night was nothing compared to how I feel for you. Coral means nothing. You mean everything to me. If you have ever thought that I didn’t love you before, well I promise to show you now and forever how I feel. I’m not trying to lose you over something so stupid and petty. I don’t know how many times I can say how sorry I am. It’s not like we can both let each other go. We have been together for so long. Baby, at least give me a chance to explain. What we have is something so real and something so pure. At least open your heart for me. I’m begging you, please. I love you and I miss you to pieces. Call me.” At the same time, my phone was ringing. I let it ring for two rings. I looked at the phone and saw “Christopher” and picked up. “Hey Christopher.” “Hey Asia. How you doing?” “I’m good. How are you?” “Alright. Is Reginae near you?” “No! Why? What’s going on?” “I’ve been trying to talk to her all day. My phone calls have been going to voicemail and my texts have been going unanswered. I’ve been trying to apologize about Coral, but Reginae ain’t trying to hear it. I think I’ve lost the woman I fell in love with. But where is she? Can I talk to her?” I thought for a second and then spoke. “What happened with Coral?” He sighed and then spoke. “Coral came by and wanted to talk as she said. She drugged me and then got me undressed. The only thing I had on was my boxers. Then the doorbell rang and I knew it was Reginae. She came in looking for me. We were supposed to spend the weekend together. But when she seen Coral climb on top of me, she cried and ran out the room. I tried to run after her but she sped away in a yellow cab. That was 4 months ago. I’ve been calling and texting and I can’t seem to get thru to her.” I sat listening to Christopher sob over Reginae. I’ve never heard him cry over a woman and I’ve known him for a long time. I’ve been watching his career continue to bloom. I was 19 when he first came on the music scene at 16. Reginae must be so important to him. I finally had enough and said “Christopher, when was the last you seen Reginae?” “About 4 1/2 months ago.” “When was the last time you had sex?” “About a year ago. We haven’t made love in awhile.” “How was it?” “It was amazing. Reginae had me looking for more. I’ve been good. I’m just waiting for us to be on good terms. I’m also waiting to renew our vows again. I love Reginae and I want to continue to spend the rest of my #life with her. There is no other woman that I would rather spend the rest of my #life with then Reginae.” Christopher wants to get remarried again!!! That’s why Reginae is mad. Raye probably told her or she’s sensing his happiness about being with her. Wow! I knew Christopher was in love with her but not like ready to drop to one knee and ask for her hand in marriage. My best friend better stay with this man. If she don’t somebody else will get him. I was in another world when Christopher said “Ash! Ash! You still there?” “Yea. I’m here. I’m thinking of a master plan. We’re coming home tonight.” “She’s gonna be upset.” “Look Chris, I’ve never seen you cry over any woman. I know she’s my best friend and you’re my best friend too. You need to handle what you need to handle with Kelenderia, cuz your calling her your girlfriend and she’s calling you her good friend. You’re in love and she’s floating. Fix it. If she’s the one keep calling and keep fighting. She’ll come around.” “iight thanks Ash. What time is ya’ll flight?” “April’s making it for 5:30, and we’ll be in Virginia around 6:30 or 7:30pm.” “Alright. I’ll send a car to come get you. I’m doing a show at my old high school: Essex tonight around 8pm. Get Reginae to wear something beautiful tonight. Meet me there.” “Well done. You’re a big star now.”

Part 1 I kept looking at my phone as Christopher continued to call and text me. “What in the hell does he want?” I thought to myself. “Answer him or I will.” My best friend Asia said. “Why? I’m about to do my photo shoot. I don’t have time.” My phone began playing “Amen” by Meek Mill, telling me that I had a text message. I looked at it and put my phone away. The photographer called for me to come. My hair and makeup was done and my outfit was on. I looked at my phone once more, put it on the table and left for the set. Asia Reginae can play everyone else in this room and say that she only misses her sister and not Christopher. Reginae can front with everyone else about not missing Christopher, but she ain’t fooling me. I picked up her iPhone, put in her code (021303) which is Reginae and Christopher’s wedding anniversary, and opened her messages. Chris sent her the most out of everyone. His messages were thoughtful and caring. He shows that he’s in love with her. “I need you babe” “Reginae, I miss you.” “Baby, I love you.” “Call me back, babe.” “Let me know your ok.” “I’m lost without you.” ” How does it feel to know that I love you?” “Do you know how hard it is not sleeping next to you or not being in the same state as you?” “When are you coming home?” “Do you even have a clue as to how much I miss you?” Reginae never replies to any of the messages he sends. She tries to pretend like love and Christopher have not captured her heart. She thinks if she just focuses on work, she won’t feel love. Love is not something that you can just throw under the bus. You have to accept it and deal with it. Just as much as Christopher misses her, she misses him just as much. I just can’t wait until she can finally admit to Christopher. But she first has to admit that she’s in love to herself.

Chapter 2 20 Minutes Later Christopher I searched the crowd for my family and nobody was in the crowd except for Tina and ShaKinah. ShaKinah helped me change into a more suitable outfit for the rest of the night, which was a navy American Eagle Military shirt, American Eagle gray cargo shorts and a fresh new pair of black Air 4 Jordans. I came back out and signed a few more autographs and took a few more pictures and then ShaKinah, Tina, and I with Patrick. We walked outside towards my tour bus where ShaKinah said my fam would be. Ashlie and April were outside smoking a blunt, while Reginae and Momma J was on my tour bus. Even though I was mad at Reginae, she looked even better in that black skintight lace dress she had on. She made her self almost 6 feet but I still was 5 inches taller than her. Her ass was fatter and was poking out more because she lost most of the baby fat in her stomach and it went to her thighs and ass. Reginae looked up at me and shook her head in disgust. I just continued to watch Reginae eat a banana. I then sat behind her and started sucking on my wife’s neck with my hands around her waist. I began rubbing my wife’s shoulders up and down. “Enough Christopher” she screamed. I moved my hands away. Reginae got up and walked to the bathroom. Three years ago around this time Reginae was pregnant with our daughter SiyAisha Mari Harris Brown, but due to stress we lost SiyAisha at 6 months. To show that I love SiyAisha so much, I have a tattoo of “Daddy’s Princess: SiyAisha” on my chest. It’s just a symbol of my love for my daughter. So just for my wife to cool off, I moved downstairs into the basement. I felt horrible and I cried tears of sadness that we couldn’t see our daughter and hold her. That’s been over three years. We weren’t having sex anymore. Everything just left our relationship. So me as a man I had needs so I cheated. I regret the sin that I made. I regret ever hurting Reginae because she won’t even talk to me except to scream at me. I’ve been going to counseling on Thursdays by myself to fix our marriage. I’ve asked Reginae to come with me several times, but she complains that she’s too busy with work to even think about coming. I’m trying here but I need some support. I’m trying to fix our marriage but damn I could use some help. “Let’s have a quickie right now” I blurted out. “Oh hell no. Chris, I’m tired.” “Come on Reginae. I just want to spend some time with you.” “We can have sex later.” “Why not right now? I’m in the mood and I’m horny as hell. We can lock this door.” “Oh please Christopher. Move Now! I told you I don’t have time. I need to go get dressed.” Reginae brushed pasted me and walked towards the tour bus bathroom. Reginae acts like we didn’t have a child together or that we never made love before. I don’t know what her problem is but I was going to fix whatever was making her distant from me. Reginae I walked into the bedroom fully dressed in Johnstons of Elgin cashmere purl stitch beret, Gant cardigan in pink, River Island pink Aztec print velvet leggings, Toms Pink Tamin shoes and I had my Christian Louboutin black studded purse on my shoulder. Christopher put his arms through my hands that were planted squarely on my waist and squeezed my ass. “Baby, now do you have time?” Christopher whispered seductively in my ear. “Like I said before, I need to go. I have some place to be. I need to start getting ready if I’m going to be there at 1.” “It’s only 10:30. Where are you going anyways?” “So….. I’m going to the airport. I’m going home!” “So that means you have an hour an a half to make love to me and still make it to the airport by 1. You promised me that you were going to stay through the whole weekend. We are supposed to be on our honeymoon.” “Christopher, you’re not listening! It’s not happening. I have to go. We’ve been married for almost 8 years.” I moved from his embrace towards the front of the tour bus bedroom. I walked out the tour bus bedroom and Momma J walked past me and said “Christopher misses you. He loves you.” Momma J’s words “He loves you” stuck in my head as I headed off the tour bus. I walked briskly down the stairs out the front door where a new white Range Rover SE with a pink ribbon was sitting. I walked over to it and inside was a baby pug with a note attached to it. “Dear Reginae, Over time our love has grown and we’ve become more than friends, more than lovers and more than a couple. I love you. Hell, I’m in love with you. Your beauty and presence in my #life has brought out the best music my fans have ever seen. I hope you’ll wanna continue taking the next steps with me. All my love, Christopher” I had no idea Christopher was looking forward to our future. I turned around and there he stood in black sweatpants, no shirt and Nike slippers. I grabbed my new pug. I named her “Chrissie”. I walked over to Christopher and hugged him for dear #life. He pulled away from me. He said “Can you at least give me a hug and a kiss? I’m going to miss you. I love you, babe.” I said “I love you more, my Christopher Maurice Brown.” I turned around to walk back to where he was standing by the door of the tour bus to wrap my arms around his waist. Christopher was 6 foot 6 inches tall and I was 5 foot 7 inches tall without heels on. My head reached his chest. As I placed kisses on his chest I said “Baby I love you too.” Christopher pulled my face up to his to place a kiss on my lips. “Call me when you get home babe.” He whispered. I kissed him again and said “I will.” Christopher I stood there as she walked from me to the end of her brand new white Range Rover SE. Before getting in, she turned around and said “What, Christopher? Why you staring at me like that?” “What in hell happened?” “Christopher what are you talking about?” “You never called me back!” “Christopher, just like you work, I work, too. I don’t have time to entertain your pettiness.” She walked in front of me trying to go inside. But since I am much stronger than she is, I grabbed her by her waist and pulled her in front of me until her ass was on my stomach. My dick was in her back. I wrapped my arms around her waist and I began to kiss the right side of her neck. She turned around and ran her hand up and down my chest to my face with her manicured thumb. Her lips found their way to my jaw bone. I guess she noticed that whenever I get mad, kissing my jaw bone calms me down because I had a firm grip on her ass. I grunted as my lips collided with hers. She smiled as my lips moved from hers to her shoulder blade. She said while laying her head on my chest “Baby Im tired.” I wrapped my arms around her and said “Alright sweetheart.”

Chapter 1 Christopher Ever since I moved back to Virginia from Florida last year, all I can think about is my wife, Reginae. She means the world to me. When she separated herself from me for the second time over some petty shit, I knew that she wanted me to fight for her. I knew she was flying from Virginia to New York this week to start on her modeling career. I knew that if I just showed up at her show she would be pissed and would never want to speak to me again. I just wanted to hold her and kiss her. But every time that I try to be next to her, she just pushes me away. I want to know what does it take for a woman to be happy? She knows she has the key to my heart and what happened with Coral was a complete and utter mistake. Reginae is the woman I want to continue to be with. Instead of her running away from me every time she hears my voice or sees my blonde hair, I wish she would just talk to me. Reginae and I met at Essex County High School in Tappahonnock, Virginia in 10th grade. I was 15 and she was turning 16. I turned 16 May 5th and she turned 16 March 15th. She was so hesitant to even talk to me because of what the rumors and blogs said about me. We talked and finally she got to see a different side of me. We started dating around Valentine’s Day, 2004. We became inseparable. Everywhere I went, she was. And everywhere she went, I was. But finally a few months later in June, I got a record deal with Jive Records to become a solo artist. She wasn’t to happy about that. Reginae Chris tries to make people forget about the past. But how can you forget about the past when the past is still relevant? Ughhh! This is annoying. I had to fly out to New York City this weekend for the “Baby Nae” clothing line by no other than me. I started my own clothing line when I was just 12 years old. My best friends and I were sitting around in my house and just coming up with a design, I said “This would be called “Baby Nae” by Reginae.” They loved it. But it never occurred to me how much work had to go into prepping for a show. 2 Hours Later I sat at this table as it came down to the last final person to either take pictures with me or get my autograph. I had already changed into black knit jeggings, a yellow t-shirt and black Doc Martens. My brown hair was curly and grown further down my back and my bangs were pushed to the side. I was still signing autographs when I heard that familiar voice say “Hello Beautiful. How you doing?” I wanted to smile and say “I’ve missed you” but I couldn’t let him see how happy he still makes me, so instead I said “What can I help you with, sir?” “Can I get a picture?” I am a star so I’m supposed to give the people what they want, so I said “Whatever” I stood up and walked over to the man that had captured my heart years ago. I took the picture and I wasn’t smiling. I said “Thank you. Thank you all for coming. I must be leaving now. Joe!” My assistant Joe helped me put on my denim jean jacket with “Baby Nae” by Reginae.” on the back of it. I started to walk down the long hallway leaving Chris in the dust. “Reginae” “What??” “Can we talk?” “I really don’t have time for this!” “Baby won’t you listen? I deserve an explanation as to why you left me! You told me you had a meeting but you were on the next plane to New York!” “I can’t Christopher. I have other important things to do.” “Baby Please! I’m not important to you anymore?” “I never said that.” “Then why can’t you just listen to me for a moment.” “What is it?” He began singing. ” I wanna hold your hand. Make you love again. I need to be near you. Gotta let you know how I’m feeling. You own my heart, she’s just renting. Don’t turn away. Pay attention. Cuz I’m pouring out my heart, girl” I stood there showing no emotions. I left Chris in the dust and left to get into the Lincoln Navigator that was taking me to the airport so I can get on a private jet to Miami for my photo shoot.