You were my everything. You made me believe, That #life could be sweet. I was wrong, You lied. Without you I'm nothing. I've never been this alone. #life and love are cruel, I know that now. I should take it back, All the "I love you's", And cute conversations. But underneath it all, I still love you…

Ben… (14 The Finale) I stood in Ben's shower humming to a song. I couldn't remember it's name or even the words but I was in too good a mood to care. When Ben and I got back to his house he hung the clothes, out my bag, up to dry. His mum offered to let me have the shower first before going out to Tesco. She told me she wanted to grab some groceries. I rubbed my hands through my hair. I changed the song to something I could remember the words to. "Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend…" I sung to myself. I switched off the shower and climbed out onto the cold, tiled floor. There was a towel on the towel-wrack right next to me. I picked it up and wrapped round me. Just as I turned around the door opened and Ben walked. In my shock and panic I screamed and dropped my towel. It cascaded to the floor so that it was sitting in a pile at my feet. Ben glanced at it and then looked me straight in the eyes. "I'm sorry, Alice!" He told me. But he didn't sound particularly sorry. I crouched down to pick up my towel; we kept eye contact the whole time. Ben stared into my eyes for a few seconds before turning out walking out the door. He shut it quietly behind him. And in that, exact, second, I realised just how much I loved him. I wrapped my towel around me and then ran out onto the landing. I jogged after Ben who was walking slowly towards his room. "Ben?" I asked cautiously, I was scared to get hurt, again. He swung around so that we were just a couple of inches away from each other. Our faces were just a couple of inches apart, so were our lips. Ben looked into my eyes. His looked so hurt. And so I realised: I had put him through just as much pain as he had me. He should have hated me, but he didn't. Ben lifted his hand to my face… and pushed a strand of my wet hair behind my ear. He still looked me straight in the eyes. "I've missed you!" I whispered. Ben bent down so that our faces were level. He reached forward and our lips met. He was so gentle that, at first, I thought I might be imagining it. But I knew it was real. Everything else slipped out of my mind. I forgot about my argument with my mum, I forgot about all my fights with Ben. The whole of the outside world slipped out of my mind, there was just Ben and me. He pulled away. "I've missed you, too…" The end

Ben… (13) I held my head in my hands feeling unsure what to do or where to go. After just a couple of minutes I was freezing cold and soaking wet. A car drove past and splashed muddy water onto me. Now, I was covered in wet, sloppy mud, too. But, I was too past it to care. I couldn't even be bothered getting up. The rain water was seeping through my clothes, sticking them to my skin, so that when I, eventually, took them off, I'd have to struggle to do so. Suddenly a car passed me. Just as it reached me it began to slow down. Ben stepped out onto the road. He walked towards me. "Alice?" He asked, even though he knew it was me. "What?" I grunted. "Why are you sitting on the pavement… in the rain?" "I have nowhere else to go, do I!" "Really?" "What, did you think I was just sitting here for fun!" "Of course not, I… did your mum chuck you out?" "No! I left!" "Look, as interesting as this conversation is, it's raining." "Well done, genius." I muttered. "Are you coming?" Ben nodded towards his car. I glanced up at him. "Are you sure?" "Of course, get in!"

Ben… (12) Yay twelve is my lucky number! To say we weren't talking would be a lie. We weren't dating but we acted like normal. The only thing was that Ben would be leaving soon. And I wasn't going with him. I told my Mum, the day after Ben came round, about the wedding. She got really angry- it was so hurtful! "You are just a child, Alice!" "I'm seventeen!" "What so just because you are legally old enough to get married you think you can just go ahead and do just that! You are seventeen, you're not even and adult!" "It's not up to you what I do!" "Oh but it it!" "How come you were prepared to let me go and move in with him but not marry him?" "Because I knew it wouldn't last, and wasn't I right? If it didn't work out then you come straight home!" "You're wrong! Ben and I are meant for each other! And I am never coming home!" I screamed at my Mum! I ran upstairs and shoved my clothes into my school bag. Mum followed me into my bedroom but I ignored her. "Where are you going?" "I'm leaving, Mum! So you can't keep making the important decisions in MY #life!" I stormed out the house and ran down the street. The heavens opened and so I collapsed onto the floor in a soaking wet, sobbing heap. What was I supposed to do?

Ben… (11) It's just a short one but more is coming soon xxx! But now it's November… Now don't get me wrong I was excited to be going to live with Ben. So excited- that was the happiest I had ever been! But there was something wrong: my parents don't know about us getting married! They had been angry enough about us going to Germany ( that's understandable ) they had calmed down, now. But if they knew we were getting married it could throw them of the edge. They would never let me go! I was lying to Ben, as well. He thinks that I had told him. He was coming round that day to speak to them… and give me my ring. He was being all old fashioned- it was adorable! He was going to ask for Dad's permission… but I knew Dad would say no! I was so confused and didn't know what to do. When Ben came round he greeted me with a "hey beautiful, how is my fiancé." I told him to shhh before leading him into the house. "What's wrong?" I played with my hands, I didn't know what to say. "I don't know how to tell them, I was going to, I swear, I just don't know how!" Ben waited ages to finally exhale and answer. "Maybe now isn't the right time." "What do you mean." "I'm not angry, Alice, I just mean that our parents will think we are too young! And maybe they are right!" And so Ben showed himself out and I sat by myself trying to kid myself that I had done the right thing.