The Absent I Love Most I'm in love not with my man, But with a boy some years ago. To end up departed was not my plan But my present darling I cannot forgo. Certain events as a youth Have led to where I am, But I could never tell him the truth: This this marriage is a sham. all would be fine, all would be good, If my love were not past tense. To enjoy my present adulthood. Oh, let the love commence. I'll keep this forever in my discretion, It's no use chasing a ghost. Remain silent and await progression, But it's the absent I love most.