Second Time Gone I was falling deeper and deeper into the earth, I hadn't listened. "Maddy!" I heard my sister calling me. I stayed silent. And that was it, I was gone. I died instantly, as soon as I hit the bottom, I felt no pain but I had broken my neck and back in three places. As I saw my sister Sarah from above she was crying. She called my parents and then I watched as my body was lifted from the ground. It took me a while to get used to not having a body but my soul and feelings lived on. My mother and father soon split after my death, they just couldn't handle it and as Sarah grew up she swapped between living with them and then went on to attend a boarding school in Ireland. I watched over all of them for another two years, it was weird to see Sarah grow up so quickly. She was fourteen when she had seen me last and her hair was blonde then, now it's black, like mine used to be. She always said she never liked her natural colour because people would say we were identical, and after she dyed it blonde it just looked wrong. Mother kept all of my clothes, even when money was tight she never let the idea of selling my things cross her mind. I think it killed my dad the most though, he quit his job, stopped going out to see his friends and isolated himself completely. I felt selfish, causing so much pain and despair to others just because I hadn't listed and went near the mine. Sarah was leaving home tomorrow, and so was I.

Horlick My sisters cat was called Horlick, she loved him very much. But all things have to stop living even pets and friends as such. I told her she'd be ok, as we'd get a new baby kitten. 'if you love it you must set it free' but she didn't want to listen. She just cried and cried hours on end, there was nothing I could do. It was getting worse and worse, as she had locked herself in the loo. "Laura!" my mother called, "come out here right now!" it didn't look promising as she fixed the lock somehow. I tried to lure her to her room with chocolate and sweets and crisps, she only kept on catching me out, I started to give up and shout: "If you don't come out now Laura Mais, I'll empty out your room!" she opened up the door giving me a look of gloom. So all it took was a bit of voice to get that girl underhand. She wouldn't be pulling that again, I think she understands. Bit of a funny one to start the day.

1. Edelweiss (Crossed Hearts) Hi. Um I'm Edelweiss. I know, who would name their child Edelweiss, no one really. I chose it myself. You see my dad is dead and my mother's a whore. I don't know absolutely anything about her. She probably only cared for me a day or two, then decided she was bored and dumped me with Coral. Coral is my 'sister' not genetically but mentally. She worked for my mother until she grew brains and decided to leave. She couldn't just leave me with the bitch so she took me with her i was from that day on her sister, her unnamed, unknown sister. Coral was sixteen when she became a Sernian and it was a much better #life for the both of us. I'll tell you a bit more about the Sern later. I'm a myth. Well I'm supposed to be a myth, but of course I'm not really. The people who live inside-the-wall call me Edel. Even though ninety-nine point nine percent don't even know me they've only heard of me. I suppose you could say I was famous, not in my preferred way though. They want me and I'm gonna keep as far a possible as I can from them.

Yes You You're beautiful. Yes you, with your eyes glaring at the screen. You're nothing short of gorgeous. You're not strange. What is normal anyway? You're you, and nothing beats you, your true self and your natural beauty. -Mua xx

For You I'd hold my breath, Just to see you smile. I'd lose a leg, Then run a mile, To find you a cure. I'd make a way, So you could stay. And be here evermore.